Well, it's the holidays once more...and it just doesn't feel so...jolly 'n festive for me. At least...I hope it's just this year.

Life so far?...Vague...Uninteresting...Yeah, you guessed right. I've just been working and going to school. Big whoop...

One event that happened this week, and I pray that her spouse will be alright, is that my next door neighbor had passed away from cancer. Despite my hopes being high for her healthy return, the doctors determined right when they said that she wasn't going to make it to Christmas...Completely depressing, but I hope her spouse will get through alright. She has family at her house watching her through this tough time.

Been working most this week, and today's no different. Christmas shopping is almost done for me...but I can't spend too much. Got'a save for next semester.

Sending out some holiday cheer from this blown-out windbag to my friends here on dA and myspace:

- Hope your business won't drag you down too much, Jazzy-ko. Have a great Christmas, a happy New Year, and tell Prowler and Flint the same for me, since I can't ^^

- Despite not having to talk much during the past few months, I hope you have a great Christmas, too, ma'am...When's Botcon 2010 and where is it? XD

- Dude...we haven't talked since we both left high school, which was in June...Where are you? Ya need to talk to us, man! We miss you!...Have a great Christmas, alright? <3

- Going all over the place, from Cali to MD...Busy busy life, huh? Merry Christmas, amiga <3

- ...................I dun got'a tell you nuffin', cuz I kin go over to yer house 'n say it to yer face! XP

- Yeah...Have a great Christmas down in luke-warm Florida ^^

Last, but not least...

- ...I sort'a figured we wouldn't be spending this Christmas together...I mean, what with your lack of communication 'n such...I just hope that your end's going well, as from what I've gathered from Kat...I miss you, but I still ask myself if you do truly miss me like you had said a few weeks ago. I don't feel it, but...maybe it's just me...Hope you get what you want this year, 'n...have a Merry Christmas.


Alright, boys and girls...Hell if I know if I'm gonna update again soon, but...don't look forward to it.


Merry Christmas.

I loved the movie when I was a wee-one...Still love it today.

Just one thing makes me disappointed about it now...The first movie was AMAZING. The animation was smooth and beautiful...and NO annoying songs and sing-along's in it...When the second one came...It made my head spin.

The singing and songs and the shabby animation...*headdesk* The first one SURPASSES them all! Just disappoints me that a great movie that started off AMAZINGLY is suddenly...yucky. Even when I was younger, the second one made me go "Eh?"

Oh well...Still love the franchise. Just wish the songs would...dumb down instead of them playing every 5 minutes.

Hope all of my friends have a good one, 'n be sure to eat up those leftovers in due time.

Me? I'll be spending it at home...Still sick...Ruined Thanksgiving plans 'cause of it...

Anyways...Have a good one.

(Thanks )



EIGHT ways to win your heart;
o8. Hugs 'n cuddles...Yes, they're in the same category. DUN B JELUS >F
o7. Kindness ^^
o6. Small gifts?...It's iffy
o5. Affection <3
o4. Compliments
o3. Kisses?...BUT NOT ON THE LIPS! D8
o2. People who are sweethearts ^^
o1. Males who are gentlemen ^^

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot;
o7. College x.x
o6. Job X.X
o5. Money...Yes, my money's starting to slip away quickly
o4. Friends ( , , , , , )
o3. My birds (and Rae's little abominations...Yes, I do care about those budgies...)
o2. My health?
o1. And this is last on my mind, so it's not important with MY life, but it's something that crosses my mind at times...2 RP dates that are coming up; the birth of Abel and the birth of Elijah.

SIX things you wish you could say to SIX different people right now;
o6. Dude, you NEED to come home already...I MISS JOO!!! D8 And your 2 little hellspawns...I bet they miss joo, too XP

o5. One day, we will meet face to face, hun. I don't break my promises, and I'm not about to break this one.

o4. Where did you go!? It's like you dropped off the face of the Earth! WHERE HAVE YOU GONE TO!? *shakes violently* I miss you...-.-

o3. Cuz, it sucks that you live so far away from me...Please consider coming here for college, 'cause then, we'll be able to help you. And we could hang out with each other like we did a few summers ago <3

o2. Wonder where's the next Botcon? 'cause then, I'll be able to meet you like we've wanted to :3 You in costume, and me...not in costume...But we'll live the day on out in merriment! Wonder where you've gone to, and I hope that work's not killing you <3

o1. There are many people that I want to meet with one day in my life, but the one's so far that I wanna see are you, and you; You may live far in Germany, and YOU may live far in the coldest part of Canada...but one day, we should plan up a meet, 'n just have some fun :3

FIVE things you do before you fall asleep;
o5. HOMEWORK
o4. Play DDR
o3. Play some other game
o2. Maybe draw
o1. Chat with viral friends

FOUR things you see right now;
o4. Uhm...My tea cup
o3. My brother playing Guitar Hero (boo)
o2. Many empty Coke Zero cans...-.-;
o1. My brother's room in a nutshell XD

THREE songs that you listen to often;
o3. "Panic Switch" - Silversun Pickups
o2. "Savior" - Rise Against
o1. "New Divide" - Linkin Park

TWO things you want to do before you die;
o2. Meet her; It is a life's promise...and I will see to it that it is fulfilled
o1. Live my life in the career that I choose to be in

ONE confession;
o1. ...I loved a girl, and I'm afraid to tell my family about it. NO, that doesn't make me a lesbian; it makes me bi. But then again, I don't care for dating, at least, not right now anymore.

Here's another thing that just...really turns me away from having a relationship with males...And I have a long list, believe me, I do...In fact, I have a lot of reasons that it just makes me NEVER want to date a male, because all of them I'm afraid of happening to me.

I was watching Jerry Springer this morning (...Yeah, it's trailer-trash TV, but it's something to watch when I'm preparing to go to school) and...The first guest...I really sympathized for her, because her husband was cheating on her (go figure)

Well, the asshole comes out, and he goes on saying that she wasn't the person he married, and that ever since they had their child that she has let herself go, and that if she doesn't lose weight that he'll continue to cheat on her with a skinny stripper girl...Basically, the only reason he was cheating on her was because he married her when she was skinny, beautiful, and had a great sex life, whereas now, when they had a child, he's no longer attracted to her because she gained weight during her pregnancy...

...This brings me to a point where I just say...males are too picky on their ideal female. And nowadays...It's just too much...Males want a girl that are anorexic-skinny, have a GORGEOUS face that they can drool over for hours on end, and just...have a sexy personality, ya know...They're flirtatious, sexy, know how to speak their language, the sort...

Well, it comes to my attention...that some females just aren't LIKE that...And if they're not like that, then males don't want ANYTHING to do with them! Males don't want females that are...ugly...Overweight...not very outgoing, you know, the sort of details that will turn them off immediately, and it makes me ANGRY to think that males do this kind of shit just because they're picky about their perfect girlfriend...I know I'M not an ideal girlfriend, because I ain't stick-skinny...I don't have a beautiful face, and I'm not the kind of person that will walk up to someone and go "Hay baby, wanna roll?" and that kind'a shit...You know, I DON'T feel like I'm that "sexy" girlfriend that...ANYONE wants...

But you know...it just seems like that females are the polar-OPPOSITE of what males want...Females just want a man whose faithful...who'll support them in a time of need, and will just always be there for them, no matter what happens. Some females, eh...They just want a man whose built like a heavenly god, who'll sweep them off their feet like Prince Charming, and have sex with them non-stop...Doesn't matter WHAT flaws they might have, they just want it.

Me?...I could care less right now...I mean, I had a perfect girlfriend, and despite that we are no more, she never did me wrong. I didn't care about her appearance, what major flaws she had in her character, or what certain aspects of her personality just turned me off; no! I loved her for who she was, and I overlooked all of the flaws that she had, and embraced the goodness of her being...and she did the same to me, despite what flaws I had about myself. She felt that she wasn't the one for me, but no...I didn't believe it, because even to this day, I still love her like I did a year ago, but I have to force myself to stop...It's hard to stop, but I do still care for her deeply...

That is what I like about some human beings...when they're not so picky about their ideal person that they want for the rest of their lives. The people that just want the one that will stick by them through thick and thin; I commend you...Because THAT, my friends, is the true meaning of love. Lust will wedge itself between love, so that what you THINK is love...just really isn't. For those of you that want a person that's just drop-dead gorgeous; open your eyes a bit more, because you might be going in to a relationship that will not hold forever...

I hope this doesn't offend any of you, especially my male friends...It just disgusts me when I see things like this happen before my eyes. There are a LOT more reasons that I just don't want to have a relationship with males, but I will just stick with this point for now, or until I'm ready to come clean about it...


Have a good day.